More Drama

This is beginning to get aggravating. More so than it already was.

Roy has the uncanny ability to choose someone to channel whatever negative emotion he's feeling for the day into, for the entire time you're even in a 15 foot radius of him. And, take a guess who his target was today? Yep. Me.

And without going into too many details, yes. I did fight with him. I can't remember most of it, honestly, because I think I was just that livid. I do know that Garth and Gar had to pull us into separate rooms at the Tower and I stormed off to get myself a fruit smoothie almost immediately after.

I ran into Gabriella somewhere in the middle of all that and, luckily, I didn't repeat Roy's idiocy and managed to keep myself from acting remotely negatively to her. ...I think. She seemed cheery and relaxed as usual, so, I guess I wasn't giving off any wrong vibes. Good. We didn't talk long because she was about to head out on a patrol with Victor, Tiff and a few other of the newer Titans.

What's even more amazing is that all this happened in the morning. Yeah, it's hardly even the afternoon right now. Shocker (and yes, I did skip school today much to my disliking; I was needed at the Tower instead). I'm on lunch break right now, but, I've just finished my smoothie and fruit, so, I guess I'll close this up.

Plan for the rest of the day: patrol the South side of Jump City, avoid Roy before I'm forced to accidentally poke him on a pressure point, and get back to Gotham in time to have dinner before tonight's patrol. ...oh, and somewhere in there I have to write a rough draft for my history paper and finish my math homework.

...was that physics test tomorrow or Thursday?

Something Rare

So something happened today that's typically a rare and special occurrence.

Tommy came by to visit very briefly. He doesn't do that a lot, considering he's already busy enough as a surgeon and, well, my family's busy enough with...stuff. But he showed up on the doorstep and Alfred obviously let him in. I was happy to see him, so was Gar. And I know Bruce was, too, even though it became...evident why he was there.

He apologized for not having been in town to pay his respects when Jason had passed away. As much as I appreciate that he took the time out of his day to come by and say so, it ... it opened the wound, I guess. You know, made you think back on that day and just...yeah. Um. Hard to explain, but, we appreciated his stopping by.

He checked in on Gar and I, and gave us some small gifts he had picked up on the way over. A new mystery novel for me and Gar was excited to get HeartGold. I feel kind of bad, because I didn't really...react when I received the book. I didn't realize it until I saw his face fall. He didn't say anything to me...just lightly patted me on the head and moved off into a different room to talk with Bruce.

They had tea and he left almost immediately after that.

I keep finding myself thinking back on Thomas' visit and feeling like a complete ...jerk. I know he was just trying to come by and make it known that he was still keeping ties with us, but, I allowed the whole "open wound" thing to cloud my mood more than be grateful that he even acknowledged us. I didn't talk to him much, only even looked at him a little bit....wow, Raven. Way to show your gratitude to an old family friend.

I've suddenly gotten myself very...self-annoyed. So, I think I'm going to go ahead and call it a night. Get some sleep and get ready for a long day in the office tomorrow. Bruce is going to show me some more of the A.I. department and I need to be awake and attentive.

Been a While

Wow, have I been failing at updating this thing or what? Ugh. I'm sorry...readers, whoever you are if ...you're even out there. Things have been chaotic in Gotham lately and just...dealing with things is getting harder rather than easier and I'm just this much closer to seriously wanting to beat the tar out of that one punching bag in the training gym.

I'll try to keep this from exploding all over you.

In short, the media's been obnoxious (more so than usual, which is saying a lot). Now that the initial 'shock' about Jason's death has worn off (or so THEY think), we've started getting more ...invites for interviews and other stuff. I never once thought I could loath talk shows and...newspapers and gossip columns like I do now. They don't have any shame or respect or...--I'm just repeating things other people probably already know or think. Bruce and I are on edge and Diana and Alfred have been playing referee. Though I think Diana might pummel the next group that shows up on our doorstep.

Gar's having a hard time dealing with it, too...and it's not any easier now that the news is really beginning to question where Robin's gone. Him being recognizable both as Beast Boy and as, well, Garfield, has him open to 'attacks' on both sides. We're just praying that no one manages to make a connection with Jason's death and Robin's sudden disappearance from Batman's side and from his occasional team-ups with Titans West. If that happens, well...I really don't know how I'll handle it. I don't want to think about it, honestly.

Aside from that, hero/tower life has just been stressful in general. Drama has been out the wazoo and it's ...like everyone knows what's going on, but no one knows what's going on. If that makes sense. There's lots of confusing gossip going on between the newer recruits and for those of us who have been on the team longer, it's difficult to decipher what's for real and what's just a rumor weed. Normally I wouldn't care, but, considering I witnessed part of the source for it?

To put a long story really short? Roy and Donna broke up last week. And it wasn't just a break up, it was...pretty vicious. And it came out of no where. I was in the command center with Karen, Garth, Victor, Lune and Gar when they suddenly just exploded yelling at each other somewhere in the hallway. We missed the first half of it while we were just trying to locate them, but, it ended badly. Donna flew off near tears and Roy... I was surprised he wasn't breathing fire or that he didn't kill Victor and Garth when they tried communicating with him. He just stormed off and we didn't see him again for the rest of the day.

I haven't seen Donna around the towers in a while--at least while I've been there--but when I've seen Roy, he's either in a really, really bad mood (but then again, what else is new?) or he's really....distant. Wally's been worried about him, as has Garth, but. I dunno. Like I said, the "young ones" have been eating this up for a while and coming up with their own 'reasonings', since, Donna was Roy's longest lasting girlfriend. ...--but now I'M falling into all this...freaking gossip, why do I care...

Key point is: Things have been weird/annoying/difficult when it comes to keeping "teen life" separated from "work". I wonder if Bruce and Diana deal with drama remotely like this up at the Watch Tower. Pff.

So, as you can imagine, focusing on much of anything lately has just been a pain in the butt.

I just hope that I can maintain my grades and...whatever grasp on an optimistic mood I have left. Speaking of which, I have a research paper to finish, so, I think I'll call this entry quits for now and turn on some Sherlock to help me focus.